Hopeslight

too-late-to-say-that-now asked: What made you want to start this blog? It's a wonderful thing your doing ... But do you ever feel burdened by it all? Hope your doing great!

Originally it was started by someone else, actually! I’ve been running it for maybe.. 4 years I think?
The owner decided he wanted me to help. He eventually gave it to me because he didn’t want it anymore and seen how good it was for me.
It’s usually no burden, I just work a lot and feel bad whenever I’m not here to answer any private messages or asks.
I love this page so much though, honestly. It got me through a lot even though it wasnt any real benefit to me other than helping people. Makes me feel better.
I hope you’re having a good night 💕

Anonymous asked: It's been seven years I've been empty. I've gone from eating disorders, to self harm, 18 suicide attempts, to drug addiction. I've been raped, gotten pregnant, abused by my boyfriend. Last year I fell in love, and everything was good, till he broke my heart and left for no real reason but to take care of himself. And that, that break up is what broke me the most. Out of all the shit I've done and gone through, that's what's making me doubt my existence right now. How can I keep on just living?

You just have to make yourself keep fighting no matter what. As much as I understand how it feels, please take into consideration if he left for himself, he did it for good reason. He might not have been stable enough for a relationship and didn’t want to bring you down too.
Between all of those things, I can imagine you’re like me and they toss through your head constantly. But I can promise you you’re stronger than them, and that you can move on from this. Take time for yourself. Smile. Go out and do something fun.
Love is love, maybe you’ll never stop. But the wound will ease. I promise.

Anonymous asked: i really hate myself and i cant talk to people about it, my eating has gone mad and i cant deal with it, i cant talk to family as they don’t support me and i want all this to end but its getting worse, pls help💔

Please try to eat, I don’t want you to go down that road. Things are always gonna get rough off and on but you gotta face then and stay strong, so many people care about you, even countless that you don’t even know. Please stay strong Hun.

Anonymous asked: He had to commit suicide, I haven’t stopped crying I’m a pathetic piece of shit and I’ve stopped eating I’m angry that I’m angry at him, how can I be angry at the dead guy I fucking love, I’m so shitty

You’re not angry at him, you’re angry at what’s happened. The thing is, you miss him. And trust me I know how that feels all too well.
I can say in any way I support what he did, but I can promise you he wasn’t in a good mind set if he did that and there was much more than what anyone in the world could do. Regardless of him making that choice, he loved you.
He left loved by I can imagine his family, his friends, and especially you.

Anonymous asked: There's this guy, and he's awesome. And, I am super confused on whether or not I actually like him or if it's just... Idk. But, my best friend likes him too. And, he's not really into her, and he called me pretty, and I don't wanna hurt her, and I'm even more confused. I don't know what to do, and it's driving me insane. I couldn't even fall asleep easy last night. He's the first guy I've felt attracted to since my ex 6 months ago. I'm losing my mind here.

Honestly, I would say go for it. If he doesn’t like her that way, nothing can change that. You’re either attracted to someone or you’re not, you can’t force that. If you think he likes you talk to him about it or suggest a date maybe. She’ll have to understand not everyone that she’ll like will have mutual feelings and she should be happy her friend found someone regardless of who. At least you’ll be happy. Take that chance.

Anonymous asked: Really hate life right now... Between senior year being the worst year ever, not wanting to go to college but my parents practically forcing me, my weight that I can't lose for whatever reason, no matter how much i work out &diet, and I shouldn't like the guy I like (my friend had a thing for him), I hate life. Doesn't help I'm an annoying piece of shit. God, I just don't know what to do at this point. I genuinely hate life right now.

First off, Don’t let anyone or anything ruin your senior year. It’s your last year of high school. Last year of dances. Last year of homework and waking up to carry around dumb books in the hallways you’ve grown so used to. You’ll miss it. Take advantage of everything.
As for college, simply don’t let them. If you don’t want to, don’t have the money, or know what you want to do - don’t let anyone else take control of YOUR life. Because in a few years, you’ll be paying back that debt. Not them. It’ll be your career. Not theirs. No one else can control your life. Especially for the fact I can safely assume you’re 18 or close to so. You’re an adult and you can decide what’s best for yourself.
Honestly if you really like the guy, maybe talk to her about it. She might not even care. But even so, I’m personally a type of person that if I love someone, I’ll go after them regardless because love is so rare in this world and you should never pass it up when you find it. Friends and relationships.. most aren’t forever. Sadly.
But honestly, follow your heart when it comes to it. Sometimes you gotta be selfish because the best things can come out of it.
I love you and I hope this helps dear. Stay strong.

Anonymous asked: Just relapsed on the whole self harm thing. Can't remember the last time I did it. I'm not a cutter, but there's other ways. Over something so stupid too. God, I hate my life.

Don’t hate your life over that. We all relapse to something once and a while. Doesn’t make it a good thing, but once in a while we all take a step back. It’s how we learn to move forward. In the last 10 years of my self harming, I can’t tell you how many times I tried to quit and how many times I relapsed. It’s a process that takes a while sweetie.

Anonymous asked: I know he did me wrong. I may have been distant, and maybe he had every right to talk to other girls and get back with his ex. But, is it okay not to hate him? To still want the best for him and to still have a small flame that apparently won't burn out? I just don't know anymore. It's been months now. I'm so confused...

It’s okay not to hate someone and still be a good person and hope for another’s happiness. But if he hurt you it’s not worth wasting your heart on it either doll.

Anonymous asked: I talked to him a little. A sick burn, if I do say so. Basically, he's selling discount cards for a class of his, and he asked if I wanted one. I told him I bought one and he says, "This one comes with love." And I looked at him and said, "I doubt that." And continued with my night. If it came with love, I'm pretty sure we would have worked out or would still be friends. Nah, but I feel better. Who knew? I figured I'd tell you though, you're the only one who cares, really.

I’ll always care sweetie. I’m glad you’re feeling better. Stand your ground.

captain-k-nuckles asked: Hey beautiful! It's been a while since you posted, I just wanted to check up and see how things are. I hope everything is going well :)

A lot has been going on doll.. I’m sorry for not posting as much.
Thank you for caring ✨